LIFE HAS TO MOVE ON!

Tears roll down my "soft" cheeks- may be because they have become fond of its softness. It seems these tears are gonna leave no stone un-turned to traverse the path again. But every time their journey begins, a serrated arrow pierces through my heart's valves. It hurts, it really does. And the worst part is that the pain and the words describing the pain are not inter-convertible! I mean it, I am still in search of a relationship between the parameters. For the first time, life seems empty. Failure can sometimes, taste so bitter- I had never imagined! It's indeed difficult to digest the fact that I have lost it. I could not be better than these "sub-standard" people. Now the attention shifts to the word "sub-standard." At this point of time, I may not be deserving enough to use this adjective for the apparent winners, but the fact is a fact. No force in this universe can ever force me to accept that these people are better than me. Call it my arrogance or my "loser" attitude- I simply do not give a damn about it! I simply do not. Just a single word from my mouth- " Why?"

I have lost the strength to bounce back, lost the immense faith on the justice that seemed to prevail till this day. I may not be destined to be a part of that team- and I never wished to- but the way that happened proved too rude. What shall I say? It was not that luck deserted me cause I always believe luck favors the deserving ones. The reason was maybe I didn't prove to be strong enough that day to grab my luck. And yeah, I had always been taught- "energy is conserved in the universe"- then where did all my effort go? Heat dissipated to the surroundings? The transformation could not have been worse- I swear!

Now, I cannot turn back the time, the moments. And I am in no mood to face it again. I don't even intend to witness the time move backward. I am running short of ideas how to turn over a new leaf. Life gifted me my first real defeat- a defeat that has become a turning point of my life. The ambiguity is that it's still not clear which path am I heading toward. A new and a determined beginning towards glory or a hill spiraling downwards towards gloom? The answer lies with me, no doubt. But am I equipped well enough to face the stark reality and move ahead? At this point of time, a BIG NO.

Failure is not a stepping stone for success; instead success breeds success. At the same time, success can never taste sweet if you lack the experience of being beaten! But these are just the two sides of a coin. The transition is a hell. But, I want to face it like a winner. Whatever destiny has in store for me, I have no other way except than to accept it. But I am in no mood either to let it slip. I need not prove others what I have got in me. I know, every one is uniquely talented and no one other than me can have 0.1% of the talent which I have been blessed with. The only thing that remains to be seen is when is the talent gonna be rewarded in a true sense. The uphill struggle begins and I will make sure, I enjoy each moment of that struggle and finally make it happen!